I am no closer to understanding Webster’s highly annoying text message style than I was two days ago. I’m probably more aggravated at this point. I’m pretty sure I have a right to be, but maybe I don’t? Who knows at this point. I really need to talk to him about it as it is absolutely making me feel like shit and making me think he’s a selfish asshole (which i’m fairly certain that he’s not), but until I can actually have a conversation with him, I am left to wonder, be pissed off and let my mind create it’s own ‘he’s an ass’ scenarios.
Here is yesterday’s text message exchange. You guys tell me ……….
At 9:22pm last night – him: hey hey, sorry for being out of contact. busy with the kids and work while fretting over Greer burning.
At 9:25 last night – me : I’ve been thinking about you guys re: Greer and was wondering how everyone was doing
At 9:32 – him : I am ok, my parents are sweating it. We have not really let the kids know but they were there so they definitely are aware. Neck and back still sore. Headed to bed shortly
9:36 – me : 😦 I’m sorry ……. did you go hiking this morning like you wanted to?
9:46 – me : Alright, have a good night ……….
Now I realize that he’s got a lot going on right now. I really do. I don’t expect to be a huge priority (yet) in his day. The past 2 nights though he has texted me right before he goes to bed and includes the ‘going to bed soon’ thing. Is that his ‘code’ for ‘don’t respond to me’? I don’t know what’s worse, when he asks some apparently lame questions about me or my day and then disappears when I respond or when he doesn’t ask at all. Did he really just send me a text message that told me all about his day without even a ‘how are you’? I was pissed last night. I was going to ask him to call me if he got a chance today, but I didn’t. Instead I got pissy when he didn’t respond (AGAIN) and sent my petulant ‘have a good night’ which is my code for ‘fuck off’.
Am I expecting too much? I mean really, our text exchanges obviously aren’t working for me and he may or may not even realize that he’s being rude. I guess I need to explain how stupid it makes me feel when he does shit like this and then see if he continues doing it as it’s not fair to be pissed about something that I haven’t voiced my dislike for, right?
Here’s the bottom line though. Regardless of what he’s saying/asking in his lame texts to me, the fact that he sends them right before he goes to bed (why the hell is he going to bed at 9:30, btw?) absolutely makes me feel like he’s sending them at all only because he feels that he should instead of sending them because he wants to.
I know I don’t really have any right to be upset about something that he many not even realize is hugely rude in my eyes. I still have no clue if we’re doing anything tomorrow or not as he’s not touched on that subject since his ever romantic ‘what are you doing Friday night’ inquiry from 3 days ago. I realize I should just call him and let him know, but I don’t want to bother him (like how my wishy washy fucking mind works) with everything else that he has going on. Nice feeling like I’m a bother too, btw …….. ugh …….. where the hell did I put my dating handbook?