When last I left you, I was fairly pissed off at the world. Because of that dickwad W. And his awesome lack of communication. And his failure to call me back as requested. And his awesome ability to ignore my text message from this morning. Uh……. I guess I forgot to tell you that in my desire to not do anything half assed, I went the extra lame step of texting W this morning apologizing (yes, I know *hanging head in shame*) for my bitchy message, telling him I was pissed because my week has sucked (mainly thanks to him) and I wasn’t happy when I saw that he was about to cancel on me (AGAIN!) and that I hoped his foot surgery went well. Dumb fucker. Anyway, in order to ‘teach him a lesson’ as I assumed we were done, I logged onto ALL of my dating websites (well not POF for god’s sake, I don’t know that I’ll ever be that desperate) and sent out some winks, and nudges and whatevers. I certainly didn’t put any effort into writing an actual message to any of these guys, but I did my part. 😉 And got two responses. Which I have yet to read, so stay tuned.
Anyway, as I was pretty much worthless to society today (and actually managed to get myself written up at my 2nd job for royally screwing up since my head was shoved so far up my ass that I couldn’t concentrate) I opted to come home. And watch some tennis and pretty much just feel sorry for myself and go back to bed. Every time my text notification or e-mail would chime in, I would *hope* that it was W, but knew that it wouldn’t be. As he had absolutely made his intentions clear and I was making myself nauseous with my self-pity, I head back out to work job #2 for the afternoon. While at my 1st destination, I get a text asking ‘I just got my phone back (he had left it in a friend’s car last night), should I listen to your message?’ From W. So anyway, I respond with a ‘probably not’. And he calls me. Yes, you read that right, he actually dialed digits into his phone and spoke into the text box. Who knew it was multi purpose? Anyway, he did have foot surgery today and must have been on major pain meds as he was happy as a clam. Chatty and fun and funny as he was two weeks ago and acting as if absolutely nothing was wrong. Er …. I, meanwhile am pretty much standing there with my mouth hanging open (however I must admit to having a retardedly HUGE grin on my face while said mouth was hanging open – what a pretty sight). He explained away the foot thing and the pool party thing and asked if his dinner invitation was still open or ‘if I had filled it with another one of my dates’. I told him as it was such short notice, I didn’t have time to fill his slot with one of my backup guys. Yeah, so he’s coming over for dinner (if he doesn’t cancel in the next hour). I am absolutely certain that he did listen to my message last night, but on the off chance that he didn’t, he is going to be in for a rude awakening. Although he may act like nothing is wrong, there IS something wrong. I will get my answers to why he’s been such a dickwad lately. Why so aloof. Why so shitty (okay, I may phrase it nicer than that). I just want answers. And I’ll get them. I will be nice and polite and a charming hostess, but I will find out what I need to.
Whether his answers will be good enough remains to be seen. Whether we will see each other again past tonight remains to be seen as well. Either way though, I will get either some piece of mind or closure.
I swear people, I couldn’t make 1/2 the shit that goes on in my daily life up. I’m not that good. It’s absolutely exhausting being me 😉
Stay tuned …………….as I have some ‘grilling’ to do …….. and I don’t mean on the b-b-q