If only I could train my brain to treat ALL dates the same (well except for the extra shitty ones – they deserve to be treated like the waste of time that they are 😉 ). We all know how I tend to
obsess over think things when I like a guy. I can go out, have a great time, know he had a great time and still freak out if I don’t hear from him 2 days later. So annoying! Conversely, I can go out with a perfectly nice guy, have a perfectly nice time, look forward to seeing him again and be absolutely fine if he doesn’t call me for another 2 weeks. Why, why, why can’t I be that cavalier about all of them?! I realize sure, with a guy I like I can’t wait to see him again, but c’mon dating gods, shouldn’t there be a happy medium somewhere?
Case in point. Mr Conservative, Mr Long Story Short & The Cowboy. Had a good time with all of them. Mr Long Story Short texts me maybe once a week and has yet to suggest another meet up. I’m absolutely fine with that and haven’t lost a wink of sleep. Mr Conservative likes me too. I haven’t heard from him since last week and nope, haven’t lost sleep over him either. Liked The Cowboy and had a good time, but don’t really care if I see him again or not. Really? Is a toe curling kiss and an anticipation of a stellar bike ride enough to turn a (usually)
somewhat perfectly rational human being into a ridiculously annoying weirdo? Why can’t I train my brain to just let things go and go with the flow?
Even if someone who shall remain nameless hadn’t have been such a fucking flake and actually followed through on what he said, I guarantee I still would have turned into a blathering idiot and screwed things up. I don’t know what’s worse; being totally ‘meh’ about a guy and being able to go with the flow, or being all psyched about a guy and turning into a dumbass? Yes, I know, the reasonable answer would be to take from both. Try to be ‘meh’ about the guy you’re totally into, but apparently that’s not how my mind is wired.
*sigh* I wonder if there’s some sort of lobotomy that might help. 😦