Not in a 1,2,3 is this microphone on kinda way. In a, how the hell am I going to do with my 1st ‘test’ of my anti-TD campaign. We all know I’m a pussy. In the worse sense of the word (is there a good sense?) when it comes to TD. And his kids. I have never missed one of TD Jr’s basketball games. This week has been horrible. Yesterday and this morning have absolutely sucked thanks to a lovely and quite vivid dream I had about TD. And The Vacation Crashing Whore. I’m not a moron, but the thought of him touching her and *gasp* bike riding with her makes me physically nauseous. I’ve stopped myself from contacting him as that would pretty much be the equivalent of renting billboard space on the I-10 announcing what a fucking loser I am. I’m afraid to sleep now for fear that I will have another
nightmare dream about them together. 😦 Anywhoo, TD Jr is playing today. 2 games. I already missed the 1st as I couldn’t bring myself to go knowing that TD would be there. I want to go to the 2nd one. I am thinking I’ll show up late and just sit at the edge of the bleachers by myself and look like a total loser. I miss them all. I don’t think I can go cold turkey with all of them. I want to go to the game for TD Jr. He likes me being there and specifically invited me.
If the Vacation Crashing Whore is there, that’s a whole other story. As TD promised me that she would have no interaction with the kids for a ‘long time’, I guess we’ll have to wait and see if he lied to me about that too. If she is there, I may have to sit alone not at the bottom of the bleachers, but at the top. And try not to throw myself over the side.
Wish me luck………
Oh, and did I forget to tell you all what I had for breakfast today? Yup, a la Webster, I had a big fat cocktail at 8:30am and will probably make another ‘to go’ to get me thru. Ahhhh, breakfast of champions. Or heartbroken lame assed losers …….. you decide.