Funny thing is I was the sucky one! I was looking forward to meeting the guy from E-Harm that had a really funny sense of humor via text and telephone and had hoped that I’d be attracted to him in person. We all know what a picky bitch I can be in that regard but honestly, my taste is so all over the place that I never know what I’m going to be attracted to. Unfortunately it wasn’t this guy. We’d been exchanging funny texts all day and as he was walking across the parking lot to meet me at the place that he had selected he looked good. Probably because I’m nearsighted. 😦 As he got closer I could tell that there was going to be an issue. Or 20. Damn it. I just wasn’t attracted to him. In the least. As we’d had such good interactions though, I figured I’d give it a chance and hoped that something would click for me. What I noticed myself doing though, during our conversations I would select a response to his questions that would be in direct opposition to what he liked. Need clarification? Here are a few that I remember:
Him: I’m a huge redsox fan Me: That’s baseball, right?
Him: I love camping Me: Uhm, I don’t do that
Him: I’m very close to my family Me: I’m not. Actually, I don’t even like them very much
Get it? Now while all statements that I made were true, I made them a bit more harsh and unwavering than I could have. Sure, I don’t watch baseball, but I would be more than happy to with the right guy. Camping? No, not my favorite activity, but again with the right person of course I would go! Family? Well, there’s really no way to soften that but I sure as hell would have bypassed the question right up front. All of my negative behaviours and statements were made with the sole intention of having him not be interested in me. I was boring and negative and I actually kind of started to annoy myself. I’m good at doing this. I don’t like to be the one to say ‘no’. Sometimes I have to. Tonight; not so much. I think I was mid statement about how much I hate Olive Garden when he totally interrupted me and said
“sorry, I’m just not feeling this”
WTF? Yes I wanted him to not be interested but damn if that didn’t actually make me feel like shit to hear. No, I wasn’t attracted to him. Yes, I was trying my hardest to make him not like me. Damn if I’m not upset that he didn’t ‘fight’ for me. I’m a mess. How on earth can I not be interested in someone (in the least) yet still get my feelings hurt that he actually said he wasn’t interested. Oh well. It is what it is, so at least one of us said it. Too bad he went on to state ‘gee, you were so funny over text’. Uhm, yeah dipshit, I turned that part off when I decided that I had no interest in ever kissing you!
What is wrong with a world where guys I’m not even interested in choose to beat me to the punch? 😡