That’s what it’s like watching the calendar. It doesn’t make the time go by any faster. Mr. OoT is 12 days into his 21 day stint out of town. He’s been pretty good about staying in touch and not ‘checking out’. Which, of course, means that I haven’t checked out. Yet.
He brought up living together yesterday. Again. Uhm, WAY too soon for that talk. And sorry, but just because his BFF moved his brand new girlfriend in already doesn’t mean it’s the move for us. Pun intended. Anyway, in the grand scheme of things, I live in the better town and have the better house. Those are just facts. Another fact is that Mr. OoT needs to stay in his town for 3 more years until his youngest graduates high school. Non facts are things such as would I really move to a different town when I love mine so much? Why would I move to his town when he’s gone half the month anyway? What the hell would it be like living with Mr. OoT 24/7 forever and ever? Sure, our ‘dates’ last for days on end, but there is always an end point. Always a time that I know I will get my ‘space’ back. To be fair, I’d probably be like this with anyone and realize that I’m no picnic either. I’m an introvert at heart. I need my ‘me’ time. Dealing with Mr. OoT’s not so little idiosyncracies might just drive me insane though.
I’m doing well on just letting things go and again, to be fair, he’s doing better at retaining information. I read a pithy little blurb somewhere yesterday (probably FB or The Twitter as that’s where I keep up on all current events) that said something to the effect of : Just because someone isn’t loving you in the way that you have envisioned doesn’t mean that they’re not loving you to the best of their ability. Or something like that. I need to start writing things down…..
Anywhoo, as an added ‘bonus’, all sorts of shit is hitting the fan today in my business and normal life and I don’t really think I can talk to Mr. OoT about the business side. I’m used to being able to lean on whoever I’m seeing (if I recall correctly as it’s been so long ago) to offer advice and talk thru things with me. I just sent Mr. OoT a text about one specific thing going on and he’s not getting it. He’s never had anything other than a time-clock punching job and his mind just doesn’t work ‘business-wise’. Not that there’s anything wrong with that by any means, but it’s just different and he has no perspective on what it’s like to live my ‘work’ life. It’s highlighting another difference between he and I. Last week when I told him about an issue I was having with a particularly rude client, he told me I should just tell them to fuck off and hang up on them. Uhm, no. That’s not how it’s done in business.
Gah, today has gone from bad to worse. Yeehaw.
P.S. Although all the above is true, I miss him and that’s just making it all worse (but probably just in my head)